Saturday, April 02, 2005
i typed one long entry.
and they are gone.
so pissing.
i'm so pissed today okay!
haiis.
can't be bothered to type out everything.
awards ceremony today.
i think we played well.
I"M SO PROUD OF ANGKLUNG!
:D
okay.
yesterday,
rehearsal was normal.
later went cp to eat dinner with jai,fatin and faezah.
went to sakura!
(:
and i laughed till MY STOMACH TURN 360 DEGREES 39 TIMES!
haha.
were talking about something.
right.
feeling so pek cek now.
haven't done a single homework.
haven't studied a single shit.
and i'm losing my concentration in class!
wth.
at this rate,
i'm so gonna do badly can.
i got to buck up man.
pressure.stress.mid year.studies.
wanna cry now man.
think of all these,
haiis!!!
i hate myself.
nothing seems to be going right.
i don't know who i am anymore.
i am lost in reality.
i don't know what to believe,
and what not to.
i need to vent everything out.
but i can't.
i'm sick of acting.
why must i be such a hypocrite?
why must i act like i'm happy when i'm not?
i can't bring myself to act anymore.
but if i don't.
i know there will be people saying "what's your problem"
what is going on?
why am i screwing my life up?
everything have changed overnight.
i feel so empty.
so alone.
i can't stand being me.
i wanna get rid of the emotional pain in me.
will inflicting physical pain heal the emotional pain in you?
if it does.
i don't mind.
i feel so totally shit.
i just wanna break down.
i need a break.
from everything.
4 MORE DAYS!!!